musicmylife2008

Mon, 08 May 2006 02:34:41 GMT

so as i sit here in my room, in the dark and silence i have been thinking a lot about my life and how it has changed in the past few years

i still remember coming into Quincy for the first day, i was scared/nervous/excited...going off to college is a big step and i was going to school about 3 hours away from home, so it's not like i could easily go home for dinner...met my room mate, thankfully we got along really well...only had a few disagreements...then one of my friends i had made first sememster became my room mate second sememster, that was nice as well as he went home every weekend...then there was the music department there, i'm really suprised it's still around, cuz most of my classes here at Western are bigger than the music department at QU...i really enjoyed the closness we had there, everyone knew everyone, we called our teachers by their first names...it felt like a family there, that's one thing i wish Western had...i made some good friends at QU, i wish i still talked to more of them, but that's how life works...then there is Liz, she's like the sister i never had, we were really close, we still are even though we don't talk as much as we used to...but we know that if we ever needed someone to talk to we just call the other up...i wish i could just take her to florida with me

then i made the big choice to leave QU and come to Western...it was something i needed, i need a bigger and better music program...i wanted to be challenged more...and that's what i got...first got here for band camp, i love it...made so many friends...and became close to the other people in my section...pledged Phi Mu Alpha, made it into there...that's one of the best choices i made, the guys in there are more than just my friends, they are my brothers...i'm able to talk to them about whatever is on my mind, which is something i need as i am one to keep everything to myself...last spring i applied for the college program internship at disney, and even though a lot of people told me they thought it was stupid and a waste of my time, i still went and i don't regret it, so many positive things came out of doing that...it's an experience that you can't learn about in college...i guess people could say that the program had a negitive outcome...i'm making a huge change in my life and leaving Western and moving to florida...i know a lot of people are sad to see me go and want me to stay, but they also want me to be happy...there are so many things that make me want to leave, if i stay i don't know what i'll be doing, i mean i really don't know what my major is...i want to do performance, but i'm not sure if i'm good enough to cut it, i know i don't want to do ed, so it doesn't really leave me with many choices...and also i'm just plan tired of illinois and it's crappy weather...the main reason i'm leaving is cuz of Mike...people may think it stupid to leave cuz of a boy...but this is the first realationship for me to be in that lasted longer than a month and i didn't get scared off...and i need to take a chance because this could be something great, and i would hate myself for passing it up...i guess that's all for now, need to get to bed soon...finals start at 8am tomorrow...but i will be done at noon on tuesday so i'm happy...then mike comes up a week from tomorrow...that's all folks

Tue, 02 May 2006 02:23:37 GMT

i'm so glad the weekend is over...lol never thought i'd say that one...it was just a long weekend and lots of traveling...first saturday woke up at 6am, to drive to Rock Island for Steel Band...came back here, worked on some home work for Orff class...then about 9:15pm beef, fatty, weber and i left for peoria for their chapters initation...got back here and in bed at about 4am...so yeah i was up for about 22 hours...i was exaughsted...sunday didn't do a whole lot...had our chapter recital...it went ok...then today had Orff at 8am where Carlos was a bitch again, but what else is new...then was off to Peoria...met up with John...had dinner and just talked for a few hours...it was good times...he might come down to florida for gay days which would be awesome...i'm trying to get tessa to come down as well...but yeah on my way back from peoria, i got to thinking, what would life be like if John hadn't left western? so peace out peeps...only one more week of classes...and two days of finals and i am out of here...i'll be back to visit though so all is well

this makes me happy

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 03:50:20 GMT

so yeah i had found 2 copies on ebay earlier of Bare and yeah i just bought them

4 cds:

all come in real jewel cases, extremely safe and packed in padded cd envelopes

2 cds :NY CAST LIVE Bare a Pop Opera: Jenna Leigh Green, Michael Arden, John Hill and Aaron Lohr

2 cds : LA CAST includes "Plain Jane Fat Ass"

all that for just $30, plus shipping...i couldn't pass it up...it should be here within a week

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 01:36:24 GMT

so yeah i was surfing myspace music pages, and came across a song that is just amazing...it's call Role of a Lifetime it's from the musical Bare: A Pop Opera...here's a website about it, it seems to be a musical that had the potential to be a big show but it just never got off the ground http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bare,_a_Pop_Opera and here are the lyrics to the song and if you want to hear it you can go to my myspace page as it's the song on there now and also if anyone can help and give me some direction as to how i might be able to come across a recording or sheet music of the show i'd love that lots

Everything’s an act,
When you’re pleasing everyone.
And he assumes that role
To such renown.
He plays a perfect part,
Straight from his heart
Knowing the risk he takes
And hoping that the house
Is not brought down.

The role of a lifetime is living a fantasy.
The trauma that you struggle to erase.
Thoughts battle words over deeds
A war with such casualty’s.
All played out behind a smiling face.

God I need your guidance
Tell me what it means
To live a life where nothings as it seems.
Spending days in silent fear,
And spending nights in lonely prayer.
Hoping that one day when you wake,
Those feelings won’t be there.

So confused because I feel completely lost.
And here alone it all somehow makes scene.
Look into his eyes for some compromise
Remember the word, forget
And try to bury something so intense.

You learn to play the straight man,
Your lines become routine.
Never really saying what you mean.
But I know the scene will change,
White picket fences, and a dog,
A trophy bright, and children.
God I know that’s what he wants
But Jason what role do I play,
Am I a savior or a phase?
Am I here to damn you?
Or to help you navigate this maze.
Where confusion is a crime,
So you fill your life with sound,
And if you dance like hell,
You hope you never touch the ground.
What happens when the music stops?
In the silence will he stay one day,
Or realize that these feelings
are going away,
So we drive ourselves insane,
Spinning circles in our souls,
As we dance around and play pretend.
And once again,
Reprise our roles.

Sat, 08 Apr 2006 16:18:45 GMT

so i figured i should update...hmm not a whole lot has happened since last time...some phi mu alpha stuff, that's always fun...had a concert band concert last night, overall it went well...tonight is the jazz band concert, i'm not in it but i'm going to see tessa, and everyone else should go to...then a bunch of people are going out to the bars, tessa included of course, it's for her birthday, even though it was a couple weeks ago...told my mom today that i was leaving school and moving to florida...she took it really well...i told her my plan, and she was like ok, she understands, may not like it, but she didn't try to talk me out of it...i was suprised that she took it that well, but it made me happy...only like 5 weeks left of school, i can't wait...it's a quasi busy weekend...phi mu alpha stuff til it's time for the jazz band concert, then out to the bars, then tomorrow it's tessa and jason time...it should be a good weekend...well back to Rollercoaster Tycoon...i'm so addicted to that game

just a weekend update

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 17:16:44 GMT

figure it's time for an update as i just sit here doing nothing...hmmm friday night i did nothing, it was just a night for me...very relaxing...saturday had to run to walmart to do some stuff...then got Lin's and saw Beef and Rob there so i ate with them at Corbin...then i came back to my room and talked to Lisa, then went and picked her, josh and jess up and we went to buy booze..and saturday night consited of drinking with them and playing games...it was fun...there are some pictures on facebook if you want to see them...i'm too lazy to upload them to here right now...sunday some guys from phi mu alpha worked on the music stands in browne...we fixed what we could and hopefully they will stay that way for a while...and since monday nothing to exciting has happened...except for last night, had a thing with phi mu alpha, it was a good night...and tomorrow beef and i have to go talk to Marcia about the house for next year with me not being here and all...well that's all for now guys...peace out

spring break update

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 17:54:45 GMT

i'm just taking all my post from xanga from the past week and putting them together into one big post

well since a certain person says i need to update this thing more often here we go...i'm in florida now...the drive really sucked...i left home at 9:30pm friday night and got here about 5:30pm saturday...granted i did take like a 2 hour nap in that time frame...i listened to a ton of music too...but yeah...i got here...then went to the hospital where mike was working and hung out there til he got off...then we came back here and showered and got ready and left for PI...we were going to go see Jimmi, my bartender, but he wasn't there so i was a little saddened...then we came back and i just passed out in bed..then that brings us to now...i'm sitting here and mike's at work...i'm thinking about doing some cleaning cuz his room is a mess...lol...but then i have errands to run at 1 then work at 6:30pm...well that's all guys for now...call if you want to talk

so today i did something i never thought i would honestly do...mike and i both got our hair cut at the barbershop at Magic Kingdom...and they asked if we wanted pixie dust(aka glitter) in our hair and a mickey head painted on our hair...and of course we said yes...as i sit here now i'm suprised i did that, cuz it drew A LOT of attention to us...people saying they liked it...asking where we got it done...i'm going to be doing a lot of different things now, i'm going to try and do things that i've always wanted to do...do things that people, or i, wouldn't expect me to do...as some of the lyrics from Rent say

I can't control
My destiny
I trust my soul
My only goal is just
To be
There's only now
There's only here
Give in to love
Or live in fear
No other path
No other way
No day but today...

things have happened in my life that has really opened my eyes...i'm going to be trying to break out of the norm for me

so it's now Wednesday...i'm sitting here in mike's bed as he's at work at Disney...i should have been working today...but my manager Amy accidently terminated me basically...when i left here in january she wasn't supposed to take me out of the system...something she didn't know she wasn't supposed to do so i'm not mad at her...and it seems to have been worked out for when i come back in the summer...all i have to do is run by Casting for a background check again...and she told me that she will sign me into the parks all week, as she has a silver pass and can get an unlimeted amount of people in all year...and then yesterday when she came to meet mike and me to get me in, she also brought 2 comp tickets for PI or a water park, two movie passes for the theater at Downtown Disney, and she gave us a 50% coupon for a disney restaurant...and that is why i love amy...she's been doing what she can to make this a great week for me...lol and then i searched for her on myspace and found her...i added her as a friend...i can't wait to be back down here this summer...yesterday mike and i went to Blizzard Beach...which was a blast...there were quite a few good looking guys there and the rides were awesome...then we met amy and she signed me into epcot...then mike and i ate dinner in Germany...yay for all you can eat German food...then we watched Illuminations...i was so happy because the inferno barge was back up and running...for those that don't know what that is, the inferno barge shoots off something like 300 gallons of propane in about 30 seconds or so...it's so big that you can feel it on the shore of the lagoon...then we went to Pulse, a classy, gay club downtown...and had drinks of course...i caused some problems between mike and i but things are ok now well that's all for now kids

so i figured i should update on my last night before i leave florida....wednesday night we went to pulse...drank of course...it was $2 long islands, couldn't pass that up...thursday went to animal kingdom to ride Everest again, freaking amazing ride...then we went over to MGM, were Eric, mike and i met up with Adry, rode some rides, did who wants to be a millionaire...then we met up with jenna, casey and bobby and watched Fantasmic and got really wet cuz jenna had the bright idea to sit in the first row and the show uses a lot of water...then we made our way to magic kingdom and watched Wishes...and then went to PI...didn't stay there long as we were all really tired...then today mike and i finally slept in...then went down to the Casting center cuz i had to get a background check again...then to magic kingdom so mike could get his paycheck and then we rode jungle cruise...we then picked up jenna and went to All-Star Cafe to eat lunch...then we help jenna get ready for her party tonight...party came and i was in kind of a funk so mike and i went out by the pool to talk and i told him what i have finally realized that i need to do...i am leaving school at the end of the year and moving to florida...i know i shouldn't leave school, but i'm just not happy there...this week has been the best week i've had since i've come back to school...yes i really do enjoy the time i spend with my friends at school, but overall i'm just not truely happy there...and it's finally time i do something to make me happy...and on that note, does anyone know of anyone wanting to move off campus, cuz i'm going to see about subleasing my spot in my house, just let me know

someone help

Sat, 25 Feb 2006 06:30:51 GMT

god i'm so confused right now and i really don't know what to do anymore...i don't want to be here anymore, and people are starting to see that, and not because i said it in here...more than once someone has told me that i don't look happy or said that you're not happy here anymore are you...i know i should stay and get my degree, but my heart is torn between staying here and going to florida to be with the man i love...i just don't know

wow i finally updated again

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 01:23:02 GMT

so time for a real update...i warn you this could get long as it was a fun filled weekend

Friday

woke up around 7:30ish...got ready for the day and then started driving up to peoria to pick up mike...the drive took forever as i did it alone and i was so freaking excited to see him again...well his plane turned out to be early and he had landed in peoria by the time i reached galesburg so he had to wait around of course...get to peoria and pick him up and then we head back...and on the way back i get pulled over by a state trooper for going 74 in a 65...when that happens you know he was just bored...it was stupid but i just got a written warning so i was happy...get back to WIU...go to lunch in corbin then over to browne so i can go to my voice lesson, which kicked ass that day...then we went back to my dorm sat around for a while and then got ready for formal and went back up to galesburg for formal...formal was awesome...it was sooo much better than last year..there were more people, the food was better, the room was bigger, and the music was tons better

Saturday

mike and i really didn't do a whole lot during the day...one thing that we did do was go out to arygle, mike had never seen a lake frozen over so he was excited...we started throwing rocks through the ice and then we found where the ice was pretty thick up by the shop and mike decides to climb on the ice a little...lol it was funny...i was kind of expecting the ice to break, it would have been bad but kind of funny...i showered after i got up cuz my hair was all sorts of crazy then we went down to get some food from the cafe and then came back up here and watched some will and grace and family guy...we were supposed to go eat great wall with tessa and will but they got on the road from sandwich late so mike and i went to great wall for dinner alone and then went to the store to buy some juice and then came back and started drinking...we went through 3/4 of a bottle of bacardi big apple...so we were a little drunk when tessa and will picked us up when they came into town...then we went back to the store to buy some more booze...then we went to tessa's house so she and will could get ready to go out to the pace...well while they were getting ready mike and i were watching the simpsons and making out and will was watching us through the curtins on tessa's door...it was pretty funny...then we headed out to the pace where it turns out they have dollar long island's...but sadly mike didn't have a whole lot of money but it was ok...i still had a blast...i'm just planning on going back to the pace on the saturday night before the last week before spring break to get really drunk...so all are welcome to come and see me drunk

Sunday

tessa called and woke me up at 11ish and asked if mike and i wanted to go to great wall as it was snowing up north and they didn't want to start driving up there yet...so mike and i get up and get ready and will and tessa pick us up and we go to great wall...after that we went back to tessa's house where will became a mini porn director...it was really funny...lots of pictures that no one but us will ever see...then mike and tessa sat on the couch and i laid across their legs and will started taking pictures, then someone had the idea to get tessa's room mate to take pictures so will climbs on top of the pile and then will has the great idea to have tessa's room mate to climb on top of the pile to join in the pictures...i was so squashed...then after all of that will and tessa head back home, mike and i were going to go with them but things stopped that but it's ok...mike and i came back and watched more family guy and he did his laundry that he needed to do

Monday

then tessa came back monday afternoon...we met up and gave her a gift we found her...it was a fabulous gift...i hope you loved it tessa...then we went to walmart and then to mcdonalds for food...lol we sat there for like 1 1/2 hours just talking and then we went over to dave's and lacy's and a group of us went out to Vishnu...it was the first time for a bunch of us...and i just have to say it was kind of creepy but i had a lot of fun...then we dropped tessa off at her house and came back to my room...started watching family guy and then beef called me and reminded me that i had a meeting to go to so we walked over to K.C.'s house so i could go to my meeting...then mike and i came back here and got ready for bed cuz i had to get up early for class

Tuesday

was a sad morning...went to flute tech and then went to practice for an hour and then came back to my room and got ready to take mike back to peoria to go home...we first picked up tessa so she could come with and say good bye...it was really sad cuz i hate good bye's and plus it meant i'm leaving the one i love again...but on the plus side i'll be back in florida in about 30 days for spring break...then tessa and i booked it back to macomb as i had class at 2...i was late but it was ok...then concert band sucked as usual at 3...then dinner with beef and brian in corbin and then that leads to me being back here updating this...well that's all...i need to go file my taxes now so i can get my tax return so i can go to florida

i love you all...espically you mike screws

finally home

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 04:24:32 GMT

well i'm finally back home in IL...it is still kind of weird being back but i'm getting used to it...my time at Disney was a blast, i made so many new friends and had so much fun...i'm not going to lie, if you need a sememster off from school i highly recomend the college program...yes you do get worked hard and not great pay, but at least for me everything else made up for that...one of the hardest things i had to do was actually leave florida...i know that sounds weird but i met an amazing guy down there about 2 weeks before i left and i just felt on the last day i was down there that i was leaving and giving up something that could have been really great...i'm sure that sounds crazy since i only know him about 2 weeks...but sometimes you just connect with a person like that...he was also the only person i cried over when hugging good bye...well that's all for now have to go get ready for the day...and i can't wait to be back at school next week

best weekend ever

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 22:13:52 GMT

well i guess i should up date after the most amazing weekend ever...lets start at the begining...friday december 30th at midnight when i started drinking...i had quite a bit to drink...i don't exactly remember how much but i ended up throwing up and passing out on my friend Rob's bathroom floor...lol when i finally came around i crawled into his room and just laid on the floor next to the bed for two reasons...one i was too hung over to climb up that far and two cuz there were already two people in bed...after ever one was up at like 10ish we got food and then went to epcot...we stayed there till 1ish and the new years eve fireworks were so fucking amazing...while we were at epcot we got some drinks from a bar in the UK...let's just say even a light weight would not have tasted the booze...i got a malibu and pinapple...and it was pinapple with a slash of malibu...it's was funny...we then left epcot and went to perkins...first i guess i should say who we are...this weekend consisted of myself, my friend rob, and rob's three friends from houston, russell, travis and james...at perkins we had a bad waitress...she just took forever to get us stuff...then sunday we went to P.F. Changs(how ever it is spelt) a good chinese place...then we walked around the mall for a bit and then when to the outlet mall near my apartment...and fought with the crowds...then travis and james wanted to go to Downtown Disney...i warned them that the crowds would be worse but they really wanted to get some disney stuff...so we went and fought the crowds...after we got done with that i came back to my apartment to get some shit and then went back to rob's and travis and james packed and then we all headed down to Tampa cuz travis and james left at the ass crack of dawn to go back to Houston...while in Tampa we went out to a gay club...it was acutally fun and i usually don't like gay clubs...it was quieter and smaller than i expected...all i have to say is that even though i didn't really know russell, travis, and james this was the best birthday and new years i have ever had and it will be hard to top next year...but i have a good idea of what i want to do for spring break now though...i'm thinking that i'm going to go down to Houston to visit those 3 again...so we'll see what happens...i hope it happens...but that's all for now...i really should get back to packing

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 16:01:57 GMT

so a week from today at midnight i will start drinking out at the clubs...it will be glorius...and yes there will be pictures of it:-)

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 21:56:01 GMT

so i've come to realize that with just 2 weeks left in my program i'm actually scared about leaving here...i know that probably sounds weird...of course i'm really looking forward to coming back to school next sememster...but the sudden change of working full time to going to school full time is going to adjust to the all the free time i'm going to have...i'm planing on getting a job next sememster...next sememster will be so much fun...i'll be 21...so i'll be able to drink...i'll be on corbin 5 of course...well that's all for now kids

just some numbers

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 21:55:50 GMT

My Countdowns

20 days till turn 21

24 days till Matt comes

27 days till I leave Florida with Matt

36 days till I'm back at WIU

4 great things happen to me in a little over a month and for once in my life nothing will cause these things not to happen...and Tessa and KC are both coming down to florida towards the end of the month...and i'm hoping that i'll get to see both of them while they are here

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 16:36:32 GMT

so i went to see RENT the other night...fucking awesome:-) cried for like half the movie...but i loved the movie...i can't wait to see it on stage...well that's all for now...have to write my last paper for my class...woohoo

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 19:45:16 GMT

Viktor Krum
You go for the 'strong, silent type'. All
masculine, ready to protect you in a heartbeat,
all this guy needs is a girl to bring him out
of his shy shell. Some things don't need to be
spoken to be understood!

Who is your Harry Potter love match? (for girls)
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Mon, 21 Nov 2005 20:20:05 GMT

Your Brain is 73.33% Female, 26.67% Male

Your brain leans female

You think with your heart, not your head

Sweet and considerate, you are a giver

But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

oh my jason updated...lol :-p

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 07:09:20 GMT

well i guess i should give you guys an update since it's been over a month, this may or may not be a long entry, depends on how much i feel like typing...well for starters tanner and i broke up a couple weeks ago...things just started to go downhill after we started to date...i guess i kept telling myself that things were good so i would try to keep it going and cuz i didn't want to think it was going bad cuz i liked him...but when you don't talk to the guy you are dating very much, things just won't work out...tanner had a big problem with communication, i mean i understood that it was just who he was but i'm the type of guy that has to talk to the one i'm dating everyday, wether it be on the phone or online, i have to have a good conversation with him and that was something that tanner and i just didn't do...then there was the fact that he never said how he felt about us...yet again i understood this and knew how he felt but i could only know this when i was with him...and since he wanted to make our relationship last even when i left in january, i told him that he needed to change these things even a little and i never saw any effort at a change...so i just got tired of trying so hard and i ended it...but to continue in the way of relationships...this guy matt, that lives in st louis, and i might start dating...i met him when i came home for vacation in october and stayed the night with him...we get along great and have a lot in common, since he's doing what i want to do with my life, teaching music...but i mentioned dating to matt after i got back down here and he was all for it...so basically we are going to start dating, we're just not offical untill i get back home...so i'm excited about that cuz we have enough in common and just the right amount of differences that we get along great, so i'm hoping for the best lets see about work...been busy but ok...had today off and did absolutly nothing, as i deserved it after working 52.5 hours this week...it's a lot but my pay check will be very nice next thursday so i'm looking forward to that and that means i'll be able to go to epcot and buy some more things for myself...as we now get 40% off merchandise i'll be able to get things even cheaper than i think so i'll be able to buy more...lol i just hope i don't have a room mate next spring or else he'll be drove crazy by disney stuff...so we'll see what happens...though work next week will suck...sunday i work 3pm to 12:30am(not too bad) monday i work 4pm to 12:30am(again not too bad) tuesday i work 8:30am to 5pm(which sucks cuz it's a turn around, i only have 8 hours between shifts so i won't get much sleep) but then wedensday i work 6:30pm to 3am(which sounds worse than it really is, cuz between tuesday and wedensday i basically have a day off), then i have thursday and friday off and am calling in on saturday...it's so hard to believe that i have less than 2 months left of my program, it just feels like last week i arrived here...i'm not going to lie this has been hard, the hours aren't always the best and the pay sucks, but i'm not here to get rich i came here to get away from my parents and to have a break from school for a sememster...i think i've changed as a person, i can't really put it in words, but the things i've experienced and the people i've met have helped change me...all for the better of course...and i think the big thing that this program has done for me is made me realize i want to be done with school sooner, i want to get out in the real world and have a job...i'm so tired of the ed program at western just cuz it's taking forever to get done and then of course i have to be crazy and want to do both vocal and instrumental ed...i've thought about changing to performance, but i'm not sure i'd be able to cut it, i guess i will have to see how this next sememster goes...i plan to work a lot harder and practice more cuz i want to get better...not sure what else to say...oh i am going to go see Harry Potter friday, i can't wait, this moive looks so good...i just hope they didn't butcher it like they did the 3rd movie...well that's all for now folks

so true...so very true

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 16:41:56 GMT

Your Birthdate: December 31

You're a pretty traditional person. If it's lasted, it's probably good.
You seek stability - both in your career and your romantic relationship.
In return, you're very loyal and predictable. Which is usually a good thing.
Without a partner, you feel lost. Being with someone is very important to you.

Your strength: Your dependability

Your weakness: You hate being alone

Your power color: Midnight blue

Your power symbol: Shell

Your power month: April

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

YAY for homecoming

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 01:43:37 GMT

well i now can update this thing and say what has been going on the past few days...well as most know i came home for vacation...i flew into st louis tuesday morning..then i went out with a couple of my friends from high school, we just went out for lunch as one of them had class that night...then wedensday nothing exciting happened...i packed up my car with stuff...then thursday morning i left for Quincy to visit friends at QU that was fun...it was very nice to see Liz and all them...Liz, Liz M. and i went to Ruby Tuesdays for dinner and we saw Sam's car in the parking lot...and she ended up being our waitress...it was kind of funny...but nice cuz i got to see her again...then friday i came to Western...had to go talk to finaical aid and then after than i just hung around town so no one i knew would see me...i did call Crystal cuz i knew i would see her otherwise so we met up and talked a bit then she headed off to work...then around 3:45ish i went to park in Corbin lot so i could watch the practice field to see when ppl started getting there...then when i saw quite a few ppl on the field i decided to make my appearance...and honestly i got the reaction that i was expecting...ppl running at me from all directions...ppl had told me that i was missed, but i guess i didn't really realize that i was that close to that many ppl...but it made me happy...it was so nice to see the band and hear the band again...i was glad to be able to sit out and listen to you guys for a change...i know we are great and we get praises all the time, but since we notice what we do wrong we don't always agree with what the people say about us, but just to let you guys know...you guys rock...it was so awesome to see both shows...i wish i could have been apart of them...the first show was freaking amazing...sooooo much better than Sound of Music last year...i would love to know what our tour would have been like with that show...then today was homecoming...stayed at K Dot's house...was up at 6:30am...too damn early cuz we didn't go to bed till 2ish cuz i helped KC clean her house...the parade was ok...it was long and i was hot by the end of it cuz i walked along side of the band...then went to BK for lunch, Abby had to pay for me...i love you Abby and i'll buy you lunch sometime next spring then they had the performance in the ashtray that was cool to listen to...then we walked down to the field and the band had the pre-game show that was cool...the whole day was amazing...it was a blast to sit in the stand with the clarinets...they are like my family here, i miss them so much, i miss everyone a lot...spring sememster is going to be so much fun when i come back

a needed update

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 02:08:55 GMT

so yeah i was talking to Sam tonight and she told me that i needed to update on here so she knew what was going on in the life of me since we don't see each other as much anymore

hmm what's been going on...been working a lot of course...i worked the 7:30am shift this past week...let me tell you that was hell on earth, after working 6:30 to 3am so much, having to wake up at 5am to get to work on time was hell...only good thing about working the morning shift is that i was able to read a book:-) but i go back to the PI shift next week thanks heavens...i like that shift soooo much more...i like the managers that work it and the people i work with and plus there is no sun so it's not as hot, oh and that means i'm able to lay out by the pool in the morning and tan:-D

so what's going on in the love life...i started dating a guy named tanner...it was two weeks this past tuesday:-) i'm very happy to be dating him (oh and if anyone wants to see a pic of him and i you can just ask me for one or look at my facebook profile or my myspace profile) things are a little weird though...well i think so, even though i've had people tell me that i shouldn't worry...here's what's up...i know that he wants to be with me, i just get the feeling from him that he doesn't want to be with me...i know that's crazy thinking of me...but i think i'm thinking like this cuz it's been a long time since i've felt this way for a guy and had him feel the same way back for me...we're going to go to the beach(probably Clearwater) next week for a couple days...it'll be soooo much fun...i love the beach...and i love spending time with tanner too...last friday,saturday and sunday i was with him...friday we didn't do much, he picked me up around 6:30pm and we went back to his house and watched movies and went to bed...saturday we went to Cocoa Beach, it was amazing, i love only being 45 minutes away from the beach...we went through Cape Canaveral and saw the cruise ships...i saw the Disney Cruise line and i want to go on a cruise so bad...i would really like to work on the cruise ship for a while...i think that would be so much fun...then saturday after we got back from the beach we went to Sonic for dinner and then came back to his house and laid around naked for the rest of the day...lol it was hot...then Sunday before i had to work at6:30pm we went to Universal for a few hours...but he wasn't feeling too well so he dropped me off at my apartment around 1pm

well that's about all for right now...later all

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 01:53:52 GMT

well some of this is true and some isn't

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Capricorn - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You are serious about relationships and ready for a commitment.

You tend to help your partner attain the success they dream of.

You are a rock. Relationship problems don't seem to phase you.

Your negative traits:

Sometimes it's very hard for you to accept your parnter's past.

You are emotionally reserved, and difficult to connect with.

You expect your partner to take care of you - and make cheat if they do not

Your ideal partner:

Is incredibly powerful and well respected.

Is often older than you - and could be a superior at work.

Has a good amount of money... or the ability to be rich someday.

Your dating style:

Practical. A "get to know each other" coffee date is just fine by you.

Your seduction style:

Bossy - you like to be the one in charge in the bedroom.

Slow and patient. You know that good sex takes time.

Calculating. You'll use sex to get ahead, if necessary.

Tips for the future:

Open up. A little emotional expression is a good thing in relationships.

Leap before you look. You don't have to run a cost benefit sheet on everyone you date.

Enjoy the now. No need to worry about marriage on the first few dates.

Best place to meet someone online:

eHarmony - they'll automatically match you with someone who's as driven as you are

Best color to attract mate: Dark green

Best day for a date: Saturday

Get your free love profile at Blogthings.
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i'm such a nerd

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 02:56:31 GMT

so yeah...i was talking to a friend online tonight...and i realized i have been reading A LOT since i've been down here i've read 16 books
Dark Rivers of the Heart -- Dean Koontz
Strangers -- Dean Koontz
Eragon -- Christopher Paolini
Lord Foul's Band from The Chronicles of Thomas Covenant the Unbeliever -- Stephen R. Donaldson
Inkheart -- Cornelia Funke
Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince -- J. K. Rowling
the first three books in A Series of Unfortunate Events -- Lemony Snicket
the complete Chronicles of Narnia(all 7 books) -- C. S. Lewis

all the books are very good and i recomend them all...if you want to know anything about any of the books just ask

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 16:36:31 GMT

so yeah last night at work...i totally made out with a girl, granted she was a good friend...but when she found out i haven't made out with a girl before she was like let's go now jason and do it...so yeah we made out while i was on the clock...and now i can tell david that i don't want to have sex with a woman(although andrea now wants to be the first girl i have sex with too) cuz when kissing her it didn't get me excited....but then like 10 minutes later when i made out with her hot gay friend Joesph, yeah well i'm sure you can figure out what came up ;-) all i can say is that it was hot

12 reasons why gay people should not be allowed to get married

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 22:47:14 GMT

12 reasons why gay people should not be allowed to get married

1. Homosexuality is not natural, much like eyeglasses, polyester, and birth control.

2. Heterosexual marriages are valid because they produce children. Infertile couples and old people can't legally get married because the world needs more children.

3. Obviously, gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

4. Straight marriage will be less meaningful if Gay marriage is allowed, since Britney Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage was meaningful.

5. Heterosexual marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are property, blacks can't marry whites, and divorce is illegal.

6. Gay marriage should be decided by people, not the courts, because the majority-elected legislatures, not courts, have historically protected the rights of the minorities.

7. Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.

8. Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

9. Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

10. Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why single parents are forbidden to raise children.

11. Gay marriage will change the foundation of society. Heterosexual marriage has been around for a long time, and we could never adapt to new social norms because we haven't adapted to things like cars or a longer lifespan.

12. Civil unions, providing most of the same benefits as marriage with a different name are better, because a "separate but equal" institution is always constitutional. Separate schools for African-Americans worked just as well as separate marriages for gays and lesbians will.